Arushi Raut

had it ever occured to you that all your hardworking, your devotion, your sacrifices towards certain things where you have given your utmost time might all go in vain?  yes,  i just went through that. i have got my board exam , it starts from tomorrow, and i have been giving my most of the time preparing for it. but, i just thought of  one thing: what if my brain gets all shrunken and all my memory get washed out? i go completely blank in an examination hall? what would i do????? go....dd!!! ah yes , these thoughts are appearing in my head right now. because i really got tired and felt like studying no more. the lazy mind thinks of unnecessary things real quick.   #keepfightingarushi

 because i could not focus on my studies, because i could not really concentrate on my studies, all those distractions within in myself , my brain, my extremities- oh hell yeah , i really  need a very serious remainder to myself!!! girl, listen , everything that's going to happen in your life will all solely depend upon you, your act and your work. whether you decide to use your time watching Netflix for hours or study those hours really bad(y've got an exam, girl) i mean, that's your decision, one or another, you make it, you take it, and you get it likewise. damn! just -ugh stop writing this and go back to studying!!!!!!!! #examtime

well i come from the background where people are so busy minding my business. things like, what i am doing, what i am eating, whom i am eating with , whom i wanna go out with and all those shits. not only this, things gets really weird when i don't meet the expectation of the people around me.(i don't know why do they expect things from other also why me??) but anyways, i am also full of myself, like , i don't even care about all this ,. not that it has never affected me, i do get affected by it for a short time but then i come to start thinking about... why? why bro? why do you have to get affected by this damn shits ? the only things that can affect me is me. i give no any privileges to people other than me , to make me  happy, to make me sad, to make me angry. well, i am the only one who cn decide what can affect me, who can decide for me, and what things should affect me.!!!! #loveyourself

 being a  3rd year of BSc. nursing student,  i can quite confidently say that my nursing student life is pretty like walking over the hell way. trust me, when i say, it experience like hell, that means , i really have gone through it, and nursing really takes a lot.  yeah, but it may also depend upon how y'all gonna take that experience in your own ways, but for me, it was like a hell. to elaborate my experience, it was really hard for me the manage time for my posting, classes, evalautions, paper work and for my own time. it was almost like i was literally locked inside the prison of medical field. the experience was really brutal.  also , being a student means we have to survive the pressure of our teachers, nursing instructors, seniors, along with peer pressure, exam pressure , duty work, what you gonna eat today , you got no time to cook today, need to call parents for money, am i wasting too much of parents money or am i even worth of all of it? thats what ...

it is very weird that i have to keep reminding myself everytime i start my work or my things, especially, when it comes about my academics. yeah, of course, every day i keep wasting my time (actually not even wasting), i keep on exploring the stuffs thats not even necessary for me right at that moment. but , hell no, i still keep on wasting my time on it. so? how do I do it? i know, every one of us have at least one of the driving force within us, that encourages us from time to time for doing something great in life. similarly, when it comes to me, i have a dream of earning money (which all of you guys pretty have it) .  well, the thing is, i dream about myself , having a money , a lots of money in the near future using all the hard work i am doing right now. and yes , i keep on screaming myself, shouting to myself, paste a whole bunch of sticky notes reminding myself to get better in everything i do. and i have a couple of moments in my life where i have regreted the results abou...